I have been blessed tonight and am reminded of God's awesomeness...I may have just made that word up. :) I found an old prayer journal of mine that I kept during our tough financial period while living in Kentucky. It is amazing to see the puzzle pieces put into place through this journey. I just want to share with you a couple of the entries I wrote. This one is dated January 9, 2009. This is while we were still in the process of a job search and wondering how we were going to make it month to month.
I wrote, "Dear God, thank you for the peace you have given me. I don't understand it, but I rejoice because of it. Not only to feel peace about our situation, but I feel excitement also! I'm excited to see where you are going to take us. I am excited to see what is around the corner. Whatever it is Lord, I pray that we follow Your will for our lives. I know you will provide for us in the present and in the future. Thank you for providing for us in the past...I want to pray for Craig now. Please just give him patience and humility during this time. I also pray that his confidence won't be damaged b/c of jobs he has not gotten. Lord, guide him in the direction you want him to go. I pray Lord that I will trust him and be submissive to whatever direction you are leading him. Lord, let the doors start to open. 1 Peter 5:7 says to "cast all my anxiety on you because you care for me." That Lord is what I am doing! Your word also says "ask and it will be given." Lord I'm asking you daily for Craig to find a job and for financial security. I know Lord in Your time our prayers will be answered. How exciting! Amen. "
This next entry is dated March 10, 2009
Dear Lord, I'm confused. I don't even know what to pray for anymore, other than your will be done. Craig is on his way to an interview in Anderson, SC as I am writing this. I'm not excited about that at all. I know in my mind what I want, but it may no be what you want, which makes me sad. Please don't take me farther from my family. I try not to tell you what to do, but that is one thing I really don't want! I don't understand how or why you would want to take us farther away...But like I said, I don't know what to pray for anymore. I don't want to lose hope because I know your time is perfect. Remind me of that daily!
(This next request is funny!) Also Lord, I pray for a sign and a BIG one, if you want us elsewhere. (How ironic! He sure did send a huge sign! See blog #1.) Help me to listen for you. Psalm 27:14 says, "Wait for the lord. Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." The following came from a devotion I just read.
(This is still from my journal entry)...Like Abraham, we might believe God's promises but prefer immediate results. Or we may just want things done our way. Instead, ask the Lord to lead you. Then wait for Him. His way may not be what you think you want but it is always best!!"
Wow! That was so neat for me to read, b/c here I sit almost a year later in Anderson, South Carolina. God you are good! Yes, I miss my friends. Yes, I miss my family. But, God you have blessed us! Craig loves his job. I'm able to stay home with my wonderful kids. We found a wonderful church...and most of all, you have put some pretty amazing people in our life! Thank you for change. It may not always be what WE want, but once again Lord, you have proved that you know what's best.
